I'm in crisis here, and I can't figure out why. Fresh starts are awesome. Right? Like, who doesn't wish they could just wake up one day and have a chance to reinvent their life?
Me.
Well, no that's not true. I've been waiting for this. I've been wishing and wanting nothing more than to start my new life. What I didn't expect was a total and complete identity crisis. I can't figure out who the hell I am anymore. I don't know what to do with this mess in my head. I question everything I do, say, think, wear. Is that really me? How can I answer that? I don't even know who me is.
So here I sit, word-vomiting onto my blog the complete and utter patheticness that has become me. I feel so completely lost. Like I'm floating in space.
How do I do this? I don't know how to do this. I've never been... alone before. Not like this. It's terrifying and I don't know if I can.
If I succeed, there is only me to thank. But if I fail at this... there is only myself to blame. I feel like I'm failing.
3 comments:
This to shall pass. Life is a series of hills and valleys. Sounds so cliche but actually true...go figure. You are an amazing person and you will totally ROCK at being on your own. I promise!
Self discovery is deeply lonely, and profoundly important. "Dark night of the soul" and all that.
rewritten for spelling fail!
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